this has got to be the best one yet.

my days are filled with doing practically nothing.
while yours seem completely filled.
not that i expect to see you everyday.
but on the bright side of things,
i hear so little from you that i barely have to send more than 15 msgs in a day!
i still feel completely and utterly free to do whatever i please.

just something else i gotta get used to again?

whatever it is.
lets just play by your rules and see how it works out.
seeing you once a week couldnt possibly be all that bad.



you know. sometimes i just dont get you.
but then again.
im gona put the same amount of work in this relationship as you're putting in.
i'll be more active when you're being active.
and remain passive when you're passive.
does that make me a bitchy girlfriend?
i duno.
its not the best solution.
but it sure saves alot of thinking and stressing out.
and i sooo gotta learn to stop expecting anything at all.
even if its just for abit of your time.
oh. and fyi,
i dont think i like suprises very much anymore.
ooohh. and i should stop playing pretend.

Labels: not expecting anything is the best possible solution.

know whats scarry?
my daily couples horoscopes have been soo true over the past few days.
and dang big bigger biggest time.
i should have read it.

23rd aug read:
One of you made a mistake, but if you face the consequences honestly and bravely, this will become a stepping stone, not a major obstacle. Most importantly, you have to forgive each other (and yourselves).

24th aug:
Hiding resentments under a veneer of politeness is a recipe for disaster, though it might make things seem easier right now. Be honest with yourself, and then be honest with your darling. It'll stop trouble before it starts.

25th aug read:
Don't let your sweetie be the fall guy for this. The truth is that they feel a little too responsible for what just happened. Hey, they did the best they could, and the rest was up to fate. Tell them that -- repeatedly.

26th aug read:
You're responsible for your actions, but the outcome is in the universe's control. Once you and your sweetie really get that, you'll find that you're ever so much more at ease. You might even have a little fun.


who the hell writes these things?
and why do they seem to be sooo spot on?
why i even subscribe to this shit?
i dont know how.
or remeber why actually..
hahahaha. ah wells.


boyfie, i am ever so sorry.
i've been a bitch.
but you've been a bastard too.
admit it. haha.
but you know i love you anyways.


sally. selly. silly. solly. sully. loves.
mamat. memet. mimit. momot. mumut.




dont expect the unexpected.
then again.
dont expected anything.
that way,
everything will be unexpected.

Labels: i like you just the way you are

hello 21st august! (waves!!)


ok. im in a crappy mood.
tryna cheer myself up.
im down with a fever.
i cant fall asleep.
the medicine not helping.
gimmie a break.


my all time fav: dark chocolate
taste completely bitter today
not a tinge of that little bit of sweetness that i completely adore.


my thoughts decided to go random on me today.
heres a little inside to where they went:
china town
paris
the set of anamaniacs
(ok lame. i know. blame the fever.)

but seriously.
i thought of my train rides to school.
i miss morning train rides with pilot.
i've only got six months left in school.
i dont wana leave school.
im scared silly at the thought of it.
it felt just like the other day
the 'tkgs' shirt boy(aka pilot) wanted to get to know 'affie's adek sedare'(aka me).
and just last week that i spent very single break i had, with my cousin.


now that my rantings done for the day,
im gona go force my brain to study.
which is apparently bad
because you're not suppose to study when your sick.
kills the brain cells or whatever.
but its better than sitting around waiting to fall asleep when mr sand man is obviously not comming.



Before you criticise someone,
You should walk a mile in their shoes.
That way, when you criticise them,
You're a mile away
AND
You have THEIR shoes.

Labels: thats right. i know all about your dirty little secret.

i swear im not obsessed with putting up pictures of myself in my blog! but this picture is a classic. idiot shiela got bored today.
i miss my attachment days.
the place sucked.
the people sucked.
but the company of my two lovely fellow attach-ies
adilah and yun lei rocked my socks.
singing radio songs inthe room:
(im so cold im so cold, this is why im hawt hawt hawt hawt~)
labeling countless of bloodtubes,
bitching sessions in the toilet,
idiotic pictures(refer to pic above),
endless laughters,
priceless memories.




todays horoscope:
Are you unconsciously trying to lower
your expectations so you won't be disappointed?
Hey, it's good to be realistic,
but don't talk yourself down.

hmmmm.

yesterday was a blast.
did the usual studying at school for hours.
pretty fruitful i must say.
then i met boyfie for dinner, a long chat and headed back home.
pretty short day.
but perfect nonetheless.

classic line number 2:
''i knocked the thing then i scared fall down"

oohh. classic line number 1 was:
"austria is spelt with an 'L' what.. so you just need to add another 'A' and it becomes australia!"

hahahaha.

theres just something about you
that even having too much of is never enough
you just keep me comming back for more~
i love you honey.

Labels: just one more day.

im super hyper now.
didnt get all that much sleep last night.
hahahahahahahah.
ok.





god.. how old is this picture?


this whole entry is about friends!
because even tho we may not meet or talk very often,
i know you're always there if i need you.
and im always here if you need me.

Labels: bestie's the best.

I hate the way you talk to me,
and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car,
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots
and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick,
it even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you're always right,
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh,
even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you're not around,
and the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you,
not even close,
not even a little bit,
not even at all.

Labels: making every wrong right.

Endlessly- Azn Dreamers

Late at night you call on a phone
We talk about the day
When you found out he was cheating
You tell me that it hurts to the bone
To trust someone that way
To find that he was deceiving

And I know I've always just been your friend
But if you look my way , I'll make sure you're never hurt again

Do you know I exist
Just to promise you this
Endlessly to be true to you
And if you answer my prayer
I cross my heart and I swear
Endlessly to be true to you
And if you'd only see
How beautiful you and I would be
Endlessly

I remember when you fell in love
I could not believe
That it was not with me
I sent a secret prayer up above
And put my heart away
So that you could be free

And I know right now you're broken in two
But do you know my heart's been broken since the day I met you

Do you know I exist
Just to promise you this
Endlessly to be true to you
And if you answer my prayer
I cross my heart and I swear
Endlessly to be true to you
And in my sweetest dream
You learned to put your faith in me
Endlessly

Sometimes the thing you need
Is the one thing you can't see
If you put your faith in me
How beautiful you and I would be

Do you know I exist
Just to promise you this
Endlessly to be true to you
And if you answer my prayer
I cross my heart and I swear
Endlessly to be true to you
And if you'd only see
How beautiful you and I would be
Endlessly

Labels: always be prepared for the worst

some one once said:

NEVER make someone a priority in your life, when you remain an option in their's.
maybe he got it all wrong..
but then again.
it's a very logical thing to do.


im gona go completely random today.


ohh!!!! paramore has a new video for hallelujah!

http://youtube.com/watch?v=sApyi41SoVM

go watch! weeeee.

blogging is boring.

bye bye beautiful~

Labels: dont hate the child just because the mother's a bitch.

Paramore- Hallelujah

Somehow everything's gonna fall right into place
If we only had a way to make it all fall faster everyday
If only time flew like a dove
Well God, make it fly faster than I'm falling in love

This time we're not giving up
Let's make it last forever
Screaming "hallelujah"
We'll make it last forever

Holding onto patience wearing thin
I can't force these eyes to see the end
If only time flew like a dove
We could watch it fly and just keep looking up

This time we're not giving up
Let's make it last forever
Screaming "hallelujah"
We'll make it last forever

And we've got time on our hands
(We've got time) Got nothing but time on our hands
Got nothing but, got nothing but
(We've got time) Got nothing but time on our hands

This time we're not giving up
Oh, let's make it last forever
Screaming "hallelujah" (hallelujah)
Hallelujah




the new arrival always turns up after the old bird has landed.

Labels: i never saw it comming

remember remember the 4th of august.
so it's like.. official now huh?.







BAYBEATS.
the only thing i look foward to every year..
ended up to be a great disappointment.

dont get me wrong. i loved the company i had. but...

the line up sucked. and on the one day i was actually looking foward to, i have no one to go with.

im not sure i would enjoy it even if i did have company tho.


'be my date for one day of baybeats ok?'
'sure thing'
so much for that eh mr fan dee?

do you whats goin on in my life now?

i miss the days we use to have.

i miss the laughter, the coffee, the talks, the 'can meet anytime, anyday, anywhere', the aimless walks, the retarded moments, the... Everything.

but most of all, i miss you.

do you know how much i miss you?

i havent been living up to my part too. i know. but im trying.

you mean the world to me.

and you're the only friend with whom i can never live without.

the only one i ever needed.

i would give up anything just to change things back to the way they were.

but sometimes, 'anything' just isnt enough.

and it'll always take two hands to clap.

do you know what im thinking?

do you read what i have to say?

do you need me as much as i need you?

i love you loads bestie.

Labels: boyfie.

++15th december 1988
++i am small.

this has got to be the best one yet.

my days are filled with doing practically nothing.
while yours seem completely filled.
not that i expect to see you everyday.
but on the bright side of things,
i hear so little from you that i barely have to send more than 15 msgs in a day!
i still feel completely and utterly free to do whatever i please.

just something else i gotta get used to again?

whatever it is.
lets just play by your rules and see how it works out.
seeing you once a week couldnt possibly be all that bad.



you know. sometimes i just dont get you.
but then again.
im gona put the same amount of work in this relationship as you're putting in.
i'll be more active when you're being active.
and remain passive when you're passive.
does that make me a bitchy girlfriend?
i duno.
its not the best solution.
but it sure saves alot of thinking and stressing out.
and i sooo gotta learn to stop expecting anything at all.
even if its just for abit of your time.
oh. and fyi,
i dont think i like suprises very much anymore.
ooohh. and i should stop playing pretend.

Labels: not expecting anything is the best possible solution.

know whats scarry?
my daily couples horoscopes have been soo true over the past few days.
and dang big bigger biggest time.
i should have read it.

23rd aug read:
One of you made a mistake, but if you face the consequences honestly and bravely, this will become a stepping stone, not a major obstacle. Most importantly, you have to forgive each other (and yourselves).

24th aug:
Hiding resentments under a veneer of politeness is a recipe for disaster, though it might make things seem easier right now. Be honest with yourself, and then be honest with your darling. It'll stop trouble before it starts.

25th aug read:
Don't let your sweetie be the fall guy for this. The truth is that they feel a little too responsible for what just happened. Hey, they did the best they could, and the rest was up to fate. Tell them that -- repeatedly.

26th aug read:
You're responsible for your actions, but the outcome is in the universe's control. Once you and your sweetie really get that, you'll find that you're ever so much more at ease. You might even have a little fun.


who the hell writes these things?
and why do they seem to be sooo spot on?
why i even subscribe to this shit?
i dont know how.
or remeber why actually..
hahahaha. ah wells.


boyfie, i am ever so sorry.
i've been a bitch.
but you've been a bastard too.
admit it. haha.
but you know i love you anyways.


sally. selly. silly. solly. sully. loves.
mamat. memet. mimit. momot. mumut.




dont expect the unexpected.
then again.
dont expected anything.
that way,
everything will be unexpected.

Labels: i like you just the way you are

hello 21st august! (waves!!)


ok. im in a crappy mood.
tryna cheer myself up.
im down with a fever.
i cant fall asleep.
the medicine not helping.
gimmie a break.


my all time fav: dark chocolate
taste completely bitter today
not a tinge of that little bit of sweetness that i completely adore.


my thoughts decided to go random on me today.
heres a little inside to where they went:
china town
paris
the set of anamaniacs
(ok lame. i know. blame the fever.)

but seriously.
i thought of my train rides to school.
i miss morning train rides with pilot.
i've only got six months left in school.
i dont wana leave school.
im scared silly at the thought of it.
it felt just like the other day
the 'tkgs' shirt boy(aka pilot) wanted to get to know 'affie's adek sedare'(aka me).
and just last week that i spent very single break i had, with my cousin.


now that my rantings done for the day,
im gona go force my brain to study.
which is apparently bad
because you're not suppose to study when your sick.
kills the brain cells or whatever.
but its better than sitting around waiting to fall asleep when mr sand man is obviously not comming.



Before you criticise someone,
You should walk a mile in their shoes.
That way, when you criticise them,
You're a mile away
AND
You have THEIR shoes.

Labels: thats right. i know all about your dirty little secret.

i swear im not obsessed with putting up pictures of myself in my blog! but this picture is a classic. idiot shiela got bored today.
i miss my attachment days.
the place sucked.
the people sucked.
but the company of my two lovely fellow attach-ies
adilah and yun lei rocked my socks.
singing radio songs inthe room:
(im so cold im so cold, this is why im hawt hawt hawt hawt~)
labeling countless of bloodtubes,
bitching sessions in the toilet,
idiotic pictures(refer to pic above),
endless laughters,
priceless memories.




todays horoscope:
Are you unconsciously trying to lower
your expectations so you won't be disappointed?
Hey, it's good to be realistic,
but don't talk yourself down.

hmmmm.

yesterday was a blast.
did the usual studying at school for hours.
pretty fruitful i must say.
then i met boyfie for dinner, a long chat and headed back home.
pretty short day.
but perfect nonetheless.

classic line number 2:
''i knocked the thing then i scared fall down"

oohh. classic line number 1 was:
"austria is spelt with an 'L' what.. so you just need to add another 'A' and it becomes australia!"

hahahaha.

theres just something about you
that even having too much of is never enough
you just keep me comming back for more~
i love you honey.

Labels: just one more day.

im super hyper now.
didnt get all that much sleep last night.
hahahahahahahah.
ok.





god.. how old is this picture?


this whole entry is about friends!
because even tho we may not meet or talk very often,
i know you're always there if i need you.
and im always here if you need me.

Labels: bestie's the best.

I hate the way you talk to me,
and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car,
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots
and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick,
it even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you're always right,
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh,
even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you're not around,
and the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you,
not even close,
not even a little bit,
not even at all.

Labels: making every wrong right.

Endlessly- Azn Dreamers

Late at night you call on a phone
We talk about the day
When you found out he was cheating
You tell me that it hurts to the bone
To trust someone that way
To find that he was deceiving

And I know I've always just been your friend
But if you look my way , I'll make sure you're never hurt again

Do you know I exist
Just to promise you this
Endlessly to be true to you
And if you answer my prayer
I cross my heart and I swear
Endlessly to be true to you
And if you'd only see
How beautiful you and I would be
Endlessly

I remember when you fell in love
I could not believe
That it was not with me
I sent a secret prayer up above
And put my heart away
So that you could be free

And I know right now you're broken in two
But do you know my heart's been broken since the day I met you

Do you know I exist
Just to promise you this
Endlessly to be true to you
And if you answer my prayer
I cross my heart and I swear
Endlessly to be true to you
And in my sweetest dream
You learned to put your faith in me
Endlessly

Sometimes the thing you need
Is the one thing you can't see
If you put your faith in me
How beautiful you and I would be

Do you know I exist
Just to promise you this
Endlessly to be true to you
And if you answer my prayer
I cross my heart and I swear
Endlessly to be true to you
And if you'd only see
How beautiful you and I would be
Endlessly

Labels: always be prepared for the worst

some one once said:

NEVER make someone a priority in your life, when you remain an option in their's.
maybe he got it all wrong..
but then again.
it's a very logical thing to do.


im gona go completely random today.


ohh!!!! paramore has a new video for hallelujah!

http://youtube.com/watch?v=sApyi41SoVM

go watch! weeeee.

blogging is boring.

bye bye beautiful~

Labels: dont hate the child just because the mother's a bitch.

Paramore- Hallelujah

Somehow everything's gonna fall right into place
If we only had a way to make it all fall faster everyday
If only time flew like a dove
Well God, make it fly faster than I'm falling in love

This time we're not giving up
Let's make it last forever
Screaming "hallelujah"
We'll make it last forever

Holding onto patience wearing thin
I can't force these eyes to see the end
If only time flew like a dove
We could watch it fly and just keep looking up

This time we're not giving up
Let's make it last forever
Screaming "hallelujah"
We'll make it last forever

And we've got time on our hands
(We've got time) Got nothing but time on our hands
Got nothing but, got nothing but
(We've got time) Got nothing but time on our hands

This time we're not giving up
Oh, let's make it last forever
Screaming "hallelujah" (hallelujah)
Hallelujah




the new arrival always turns up after the old bird has landed.

Labels: i never saw it comming

remember remember the 4th of august.
so it's like.. official now huh?.







BAYBEATS.
the only thing i look foward to every year..
ended up to be a great disappointment.

dont get me wrong. i loved the company i had. but...

the line up sucked. and on the one day i was actually looking foward to, i have no one to go with.

im not sure i would enjoy it even if i did have company tho.


'be my date for one day of baybeats ok?'
'sure thing'
so much for that eh mr fan dee?

do you whats goin on in my life now?

i miss the days we use to have.

i miss the laughter, the coffee, the talks, the 'can meet anytime, anyday, anywhere', the aimless walks, the retarded moments, the... Everything.

but most of all, i miss you.

do you know how much i miss you?

i havent been living up to my part too. i know. but im trying.

you mean the world to me.

and you're the only friend with whom i can never live without.

the only one i ever needed.

i would give up anything just to change things back to the way they were.

but sometimes, 'anything' just isnt enough.

and it'll always take two hands to clap.

do you know what im thinking?

do you read what i have to say?

do you need me as much as i need you?

i love you loads bestie.

Labels: boyfie.

::abg affie::adi
::adilah::adillah
::althea::ara
::arif::clarabelle
::debo::fara
::fauzan::fendi
::kakak::kristy
::mae::maisarah
::nisa::nor
::nora::priya
::tanya::wani
::yenyi::yub
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